I haven't taken the time I think I should to share a bit about my "crazy home life". One thing I'd want people to know is that I'm literally one WEEK away from becoming a... it's okay, just give me a minute... I've been practicing... here it comes... a-hem...
A first time GRANDMOTHER.There, I said it.
Yes, I am, as you would expect, very excited. There's just one thing - I haven't hit 40 years old yet. I'm close, but not yet. So, I'll be a ... (really, I can do this...) ...a
...Grandmother ...in my 30's. I'm no more or less prideful than the average gal. It's been a strangely challenging thing to deal with over the past several months since my not-quite-18-year-old DD dropped the "P-bomb" on me.
Luckily, God in His INFINITE Wisdom and Grace, has made what could have been a very difficult situation "smooth as glass" so far. You know how we've been told He doesn't give us more than we can handle? It's true. I know what my limits are and He's gotten me right up there to the edge of them, even nudged me past where I thought I could go. And I have a newly strengthened sense of WHO I am and WHAT my capacities are. I'm so proud of WHO I have allowed myself to be through all this craziness. All I wanted was His Will to be done in my life. And yielding FULLY to that has led me down a glorious road. I struggle every day to STAY on that road; the one He wants me on. Not necessarily the one my bratty inner-self would like to persue.
Having said all this, maybe you'll understand the title of my layout a little better. It's taken me a long time to get to a place where I'm completely trusting in Him. I try so hard to get out of my own way. Yes, I'm still in my thirties. Yes, I have a pregnant teen-aged daughter. And yes, I am truly THANKFUL for those things and SO much MORE!
So, here's my layout from Thursday. It came together the very day my heart shifted into its intended peaceful place.
